Doctor Doctor
Okay, it's 11:00 a.m., and there's a bad vibe in the air. Why? 1. A couple of e-mails from friends indicating some "negativity." 2. Where's the Baer blog??? 3. Stacey had an 8:30 doctor's appointment...and she's STILL not home yet. 4. Kailyn's got a 2:30 doctor appointment (I love watching a kid get shots...ewwww). 5. I have a headache. 6. Other people's blogs refer to some pretty negative "happenings" in their lives. 7. Kyle's talking about moving away to Nashville. (I guess that's cool for him, but I hate watching friends move). 8. I have the feeling I've (once again) inadvertantly offended people lately. 9. On top of all this, there's this stinking feeling in my gut that something bad's happened...or about to.
I hate it when that happens. Fortunately, since I'm not a psychic or a prophet, that feeling's usually grounded more in something I ate than "premonition" ability. Still, it's a sucky feeling.
Okay, let me fight the "blah" with some good news:
- Band practice went very well last night...again. Kyle and Joel both had some guitar "errata," but nothing that wasn't moved past.
- Headed to Logan's afterwards for some grub.
- Found a tape of Kailyn in the hospital after she was born. I thought my old video camera had fried that tape ('cause the camera itself was fried)...fortunately, there is only some small digital "artifacts" on the tape...it was good to watch a video of such a good (yet tiring) time of our lives.
Seriously, the negativity of life gets to me sometimes. But I know that's reality. People face real difficulties and real change in their lives, and that's...er...reality. But what's discouraging is the focus the negative gets sometimes. As a Christian, I have much reason to celebrate. But instead, I often find MYSELF in negative mode and I vomit all the bad stuff out on everyone else. On the one hand, it's a cry for sympathy and prayer... On the other hand, it's sometimes just a romp through the pig sty of self-pity.
Well, maybe it's not that simple. But what I do know is that I'm loved, I'm saved, and I know that God's there no matter what happens. Now...do I actually live in a way that shows I really BELIEVE that?
KEY PHRASES: (in the spirit of being positive) "'Stood up' was only an expression." "Oh, you went somewhere AFTER the doctor's appointment. A-iiighht."
I hate it when that happens. Fortunately, since I'm not a psychic or a prophet, that feeling's usually grounded more in something I ate than "premonition" ability. Still, it's a sucky feeling.
Okay, let me fight the "blah" with some good news:
- Band practice went very well last night...again. Kyle and Joel both had some guitar "errata," but nothing that wasn't moved past.
- Headed to Logan's afterwards for some grub.
- Found a tape of Kailyn in the hospital after she was born. I thought my old video camera had fried that tape ('cause the camera itself was fried)...fortunately, there is only some small digital "artifacts" on the tape...it was good to watch a video of such a good (yet tiring) time of our lives.
Seriously, the negativity of life gets to me sometimes. But I know that's reality. People face real difficulties and real change in their lives, and that's...er...reality. But what's discouraging is the focus the negative gets sometimes. As a Christian, I have much reason to celebrate. But instead, I often find MYSELF in negative mode and I vomit all the bad stuff out on everyone else. On the one hand, it's a cry for sympathy and prayer... On the other hand, it's sometimes just a romp through the pig sty of self-pity.
Well, maybe it's not that simple. But what I do know is that I'm loved, I'm saved, and I know that God's there no matter what happens. Now...do I actually live in a way that shows I really BELIEVE that?
KEY PHRASES: (in the spirit of being positive) "'Stood up' was only an expression." "Oh, you went somewhere AFTER the doctor's appointment. A-iiighht."
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