Friday...again?

It's Friday...another week gone...already? Yikes. But I didn't do HALF of what I wanted to this week...

Okay, so maybe I was able to organize band practice. Maybe I can "pat myself on the back" (pmtb) for that going smooth, if not a bit long. Or maybe I can "pmtb" for selecting the music... Still, there were things I wish were different...like I'd taken more time to sort out monitor issues OUTSIDE of band practice. Or...maybe have met with pastor-dude to see how the music would fit into the flow. Maybe...

Maybe I can pmtb for getting stuff cleaned up around the house. Got dishes done (again). Picked up a MOUNTAIN of Kailyn's toys...again. Maybe...I dunno...it seems that I didn't get as much done here as I wanted to, either... Maybe...

Other things? I ordered a keyboard case...got it. Ordered a stand...got it. I needed these things, but it "ordering" them an accomplishment? After all, it's just "stuff." I paid a lot of bills this morning so that everything's on time...is THAT an accomplishment? On top of all this, I've kept my blog updated. A big sarcastic "pmtb" right there...

Are these the things I want to remember my week for? Staying busy? Doing the "routine"?

I guess I'm sitting here wondering whether or not I've really done anything more than just the busy stuff of life. And there's merit in that, I know. Getting the music ready for band practice and leading rehearsal is both something I'm passionate about AND it's my job. Cleaning around the house is being a good steward of my home. Same for paying bills, etc.

Here's the real question: "Was I a blessing to anyone this week?" Did I connect with anyone I didn't know? No. Did I get a chance to invite someone to church? No. (Or did I and just miss it?). Did I help someone through a difficult time? Maybe...I don't know. In other words, have I moved out of my routine enough for my life to make an impact in other ways than just checking off the things on my weekly to-do list?

And I don't mean just socializing. I've got that down pat. I did the weekly Guad thing. I even caught a trip to Ruby Tuesday's after band practice. And even though I LOVE hanging with the same 'ol group, were these activities open to others? Well, yes, they are...but do THEY know that? Were THEY invited? Was there someone who could've benefitted from just some time spent with friends who did NOT get to do that this week?

Maybe this is why so many weeks fly by and feel so...empty. We just go through the grind, but when it's all said and done...nothing's really happened that's all that significant. Case in point: Go back and read blog archives. It's the same stuff...over and over and over again. And though a lot of it IS, in fact, fun and worth noting...(well, most of it...hehe)...very few things have happened that demonstrate anything out of the ordinary (extraordinary). Well, the church's rally around Donny was a high point. Dave has several entries in his previous blogs on how he's built bridges with people. And there are more...but these seem to be exceptions to the rule.

Am I dissin' anyone? Absolutely not. But, I'm finding that I no longer want weeks to just fly by and feel so...empty. Is it wrong to want more from life than that? Is it wrong to expect more from MYSELF than that?

I want life, and I want it more abundantly. I want something extraordinary...