Monday, October 25, 2004

Now for some good news...

In spite of a really LOUSY night's sleep and an even lousier morning...today got better.

First, got a surprise check in the mail from our mortgage company for our house that we sold in B'ham. We were expecting one for a tax reimbursement, but also got a much larger one (unexpected) for an insurance premium reimbursement. Woohoo! I have to chalk that one up to God...'cause we were not expecting that at all.

Second, I took a few moments this afternoon to re-reflect on a lot of things on my mind lately. And I've come to the conclusion that I'm not in control of my world. "What?" you say... "What's so encouraging about that?"

Well, it's simple...really. All the things I try to control...all the friendships I work to maintain...all the plans I have for the future...all the 'gripes' I try to negotiate...all the worries I have about financial peace...all the criticism I get to listen to...

...and it's good to know that I'm NOT in control of these things. Sure, I can make plans. Sure, I can do my best to act right and plan right. I can even try to be the best diplomat I can be or try to determine those times when I have to put my foot down at home or at church and say, "Enough is enough." But, in the end, I have to rely on God for everything.

Getting the surprise check in the mail helped with that. Re-visiting the story of Elijah this weekend at church also helped...knowing that there's a person who felt like he wanted to give up trying to instill a passion for God in the people of Israel.

I've been there. I've been there this week. I'll probably be there again...wanting to give up, that is. I get so discouraged sometimes thinking about how many times in our walks with God we have to fall and learn all over again the power of grace...and how many times we walk away from good things in our lives in pursuit of the wrong things...or how many times we say things that offend or even wound people...or how many times I feel like I'm just a quiet voice trying to lead people during a tornado of differing opinions and needs.

But to get too discouraged is to think that it's all about me... Thankfully, in all these circumstances, God's been there and will be there.

And today - as it should be - that is enough...

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