Growing old in my sleep
Once again, I lay staring at the ceiling last night trying to go to sleep. Nothing on my mind. Not ill (apart from some mild head congestion). Just...couldn't sleep. So, at 3 a.m., I got out of bed, took an Actifed, went back to bed, and...bam...out like a light.
So I slept. And slept. And slept some more. And got out of bed at 10:30 this morning. NOW I feel refreshed. First time in days. It's like my internal 'clock' is just out of adjustment by a few hours.
So I feel like a bum sleeping until 10:30. Except, it's still just a normal 7.5 hours of sleep. So I'll take sleep when I can get it.
...
In other news, I've got an XBOX 360 on pre-order. I've put some money down on it already and have been paying for it bit by bit over the past few months. Still, I'm beginning to debate the wisdom of it.
Being the ultimate gamer nerd, I just had to have one. I already play games on the PC, the XBOX, the Gamecube, and the PS2. I also have a Nintendo DS and a PSP. That's just too much. I already know I'm trading in the DS (and all its games) and a few PSP games. On the bright side, I purchased my XBOX and my Gamecube long after they were first released, so they cost only a fraction of their original price tags. Still, as I'm getting busier and busier with things like my job and parenthood, where could I possibly find the time to play ALL of them?
-sigh-
I'm just having this revelation that I'm really not a kid anymore. Okay, well...a big DUH to that. I guess I'm having a more realistic revelation that I'm not even a young adult anymore. My 20s were wonderful times where I was kid-free and still had the freedom (and a dash of irresponsibility) to act like a teenager when it suited me. Working with youth at a church in Birmingham didn't help that mindset much, either.
...
Okay, I'm not as melancholy about 'aging' as I sound. Though things have changed, I can't complain about being a dad at all. With all that responsibility comes real joy in watching these kids progress through the stages of their lives. And I'm sure my 'inner kid' will get lots of time to come out and play as Kailyn and Zachary get old enough to do things like sports and, yes, maybe even video games.
...
Oh, well...before I cancel my XBOX 360 order, I'm going to round up everything I think I can trade in first and see how much money Nick over at EBgames will give me for the lot of it. If I can make a dent in the purchase price AND get rid of the 'excess game-age" I've got here, maybe then it'd be okay to get the thing.
Maybe...
So I slept. And slept. And slept some more. And got out of bed at 10:30 this morning. NOW I feel refreshed. First time in days. It's like my internal 'clock' is just out of adjustment by a few hours.
So I feel like a bum sleeping until 10:30. Except, it's still just a normal 7.5 hours of sleep. So I'll take sleep when I can get it.
...
In other news, I've got an XBOX 360 on pre-order. I've put some money down on it already and have been paying for it bit by bit over the past few months. Still, I'm beginning to debate the wisdom of it.
Being the ultimate gamer nerd, I just had to have one. I already play games on the PC, the XBOX, the Gamecube, and the PS2. I also have a Nintendo DS and a PSP. That's just too much. I already know I'm trading in the DS (and all its games) and a few PSP games. On the bright side, I purchased my XBOX and my Gamecube long after they were first released, so they cost only a fraction of their original price tags. Still, as I'm getting busier and busier with things like my job and parenthood, where could I possibly find the time to play ALL of them?
-sigh-
I'm just having this revelation that I'm really not a kid anymore. Okay, well...a big DUH to that. I guess I'm having a more realistic revelation that I'm not even a young adult anymore. My 20s were wonderful times where I was kid-free and still had the freedom (and a dash of irresponsibility) to act like a teenager when it suited me. Working with youth at a church in Birmingham didn't help that mindset much, either.
...
Okay, I'm not as melancholy about 'aging' as I sound. Though things have changed, I can't complain about being a dad at all. With all that responsibility comes real joy in watching these kids progress through the stages of their lives. And I'm sure my 'inner kid' will get lots of time to come out and play as Kailyn and Zachary get old enough to do things like sports and, yes, maybe even video games.
...
Oh, well...before I cancel my XBOX 360 order, I'm going to round up everything I think I can trade in first and see how much money Nick over at EBgames will give me for the lot of it. If I can make a dent in the purchase price AND get rid of the 'excess game-age" I've got here, maybe then it'd be okay to get the thing.
Maybe...
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